Archive for April, 2005

Theres action again…

Monday, April 25th, 2005

Even if the last days were not that eventful than the ones before, I want to take the oppotunity to tell you what happened. Wendsday, while i was waiting for Caro (like I do again right now) i witnessed some very amusing things. It seemed that there was an bike test of the local special school. It was a bit funny to watch that children driving in circles for hours ;) , shouting strange things. Friday i had a lot of work to do at the shop so i was there the whole day, but still had a lot of time to relay in the evening, drinking tea and chilling… Saturday I was in the shop again, because I had to design some advertisements for our special offers. Its hard, if you have the guideline to do that with Microsoft Word, so i worked on that the whole day. In the afternoon I went to IKEA, with the friend i’ll share the new flat with, do get an overview about that heap of furniture, we will need. We saw a lot of nice things and I finally got an idea if the room I want to live in. In the evening, he picked up his girlfriend and we went to Emmerich/Elten, to pick up another friend of mine. The rest of the evening resulted in talkin strange things, drinking tea and … some things that I don’t want to mention in the public about that other friend ;) he did not accompany us the whole evening. Thats all I want to say, not to mispicture him in the public. Yesterday I did finally set up the BCM4710 based Gateway with OpenWRT. It really works very well now and takes only 7W peak :) . That will keep away mothers rolling pin from my head ;) . Yes, the bills are very unfair right now. It was a bit tricky to set it up because the documentation had some rather annoying spikes… i’ll try to fix it.. ;)

Till then, ill keep you informed.

Joel

Events….

Thursday, April 21st, 2005

…left less space for the things, happened yesterday. Its was somehow sad, but also long needed. Its like that, that we often even don’t know what we expect to happen to get happy.
Yesterday was the first day of Caros Abitur exams and I asked her to drink a coffee with me after her first exam. The school is right beside the shop where I work, so that hadn’t been much afford, but a lot of fun. I usually start working 12:00 these days but I was at the shop at 10:00 already, to meet Caro if she finishes earlier. It was all dark at the shop and Marc (one chef of mine) hadn’t yet arrived, so I stood in front of the main window and waited… waited for her to show up. During that i listened to a very good CD, i even got yesterday…. one song sais “She has no time” … and made me somehow feel sad. I wished that she would just come around the corner with a smile on her face, but she didn’t … . I was standing there until at around 11:00 Marc arrived and we started working. As we unpacked the packages with deliveries, she passed by the window, with a face that nearly made me cry… but she went further to the city, didn’t remember my question… it made me so sad that whole day.

At work i reorganized all the cables, which kept me from thinking, i repaired some systems, which also kept me from thinking. Thinking about people you like can kill you, i’m sure. So i didn’t think about that the whole day, but felt very sad.

At home, i talked to my very best friend, and she and i decided to change our whole life into something we can get happy with. I also talked to her about Caro and my feelings, but i think its just a question of time, if i can ever talk to her without falling in love again.
We both decided to look after each other… and i am very happy to have her as a friend. So thank you for saving my life again :)

Till then, its just me and my stars again…

Vacation

Monday, April 18th, 2005

After calling my employer, I got free for today. Its just today, but it will give me enough time to tidy up my room a bit and relax my back (uhh… it still really hurts!). Its time to tidy up some things in a bigger context, tough.