Dear Ladies and Gentlemen, my fellow crawlbots…

Going by train is gorgeous… you don’t have to worry about traffic jams or time… you just can sit back and wait, until you arrive at your target point. You can also listen to your favorite music as loud as you want (unless you have earphones that are louder to the outside than to the inside). The only thing, that is strange is, that everybody is staring at me. Sitting here with my iBok and my iPod (in a pink sock) listening to Keane. I just feel right.
We are currently halting at Frankfurt Main main station, it took 1:30h from duisburg. We traveled with an average speed of around 200km/h. Really nice.

Currently, I’m on the train to Wuerzburg. Thats the second of 4 Trains, i’ll have to ride until I am in Roedental near Coburg, where Inoad will pick me up. The first train was from my hometown Xanten, departure 12:00, then I waited in Duisburg nearly 45 minutes and am now on ICE727. The other passengeers are very very openminded and talk to each other… that was diffferent in the other train and on the platform, where I was waiting.
4 People were sitting there, all bored and alone (except a couple, that had just devorced or such… they were screaming and shouting at each other until he left on the train and she staied with me and the others at the platform, criing terribly) and quiet. I treid to start a conversation with a man, sitting witch me on the bench, but he ignored me… so I ignored all the others, took me iPod and listened to my favorite “Garbage” Album. Its really sad, how people treat each other nowadays and slowly, I am getting bored. How should i get to know new people, if everybody ignores each other.
In front of me at the table, there is sitting a nice older couple, who travel from Duisburg to Munich. My train goes to Munich, too but they have to change the train in Wuerzburg, just like me. Its terribly strange, how a company can treat people like that.

Currently I am thinking about, what i did to my friend Tim. We decided to live together as a comunity in Oberhausen, but i just can’t. In major, its not him (well… perhaps a bit, but that hadn’t been a cause for me to cancel the whole thing) but me, who messes up the situation. I currently just can’t live with someone in the same flat. I just wan’t to be alone, studiing, achieving my goals and making my dreams come true on my own.
Apart from that, he doesn’t know me very well (even if I am sure he thinks that after the 2 Years we know each other). He really doen’t know or at minimum doesn’t understand how I sometimes feel about lonleyness. As i know him, he’s a person who just can’t be on his own and feels uncomfortable, if he iis alone. Maybe that is why he told me, that I broke his base, he currently stands on.
On one side, i think that i am a coward, not to try it… on the other hand, I think, if i push my self too much to try it without really wanting it, it might break later on… and I don’t want to think, of the base, that might brek for him, then. Hes a friend of mine after all… thats what i think. He tried to call me in the last days, when i was off, so i still have no further reaction, but i could understand, if he distanced totally from me.

So… while thinking and not having to drive by myself… the Starseeker

Do you know what I look like? Hm? Do you? If you do, throw everything you think you know away and take THIS! (very short post huh? this post isn’t the only “short” thing today). The last picture actually looks really weird, but with one more coffee and my cglasses on, it looks more comfortable.

Yesterday, the active part of the LugX gathered for a barbecue to talk about some things concerning the LUG. We are all very disappointed by the activity of other members, so we wrote all letters to the ML,describing our feelings about the Lug. Wehave all decided to take part only passively fow a while in the Lug.

Apart from that partly really Sad thing, we had a really great evening Thats all for now…

Have a nive weekend

If you thought, you’d get away today without reading another blog entry, then you’re wrong. Theres something, I have to tell you about, and please read carefully, cause I am doing it a bit different from how I would do it normally.

Imagine, you are sitting on your balcony with your friends, its a nice summer evening and drinking your beer as usual… beneath your balcony, there is a small street, leading to the city and beside your house, there is a small ground (obviously lower than the street), where all types of plants are growing. 3 People are coming down the street, talking and loughing.
Suddenly, one of the person, starts running towards a bush that stands beside the free ground, stumbles right into that bush, screams “Huiii” and then falls into the pit full of thorny plants and stinging-nettles. He then shouts out to the other 2 People “Shit.. obviously deeper than I thought!” and stands up from his planty “bed”.

10 minutes later, another person from another balcony. You can see 3 people, stumbling through a pit full of stingy plants, one of them with a bright orange jacket labeled “Rettungsdienst” or in english “rescue service”. A small car is standing at the border of the pit and the 3 guys are fighting the plants with hedge shears, a small hatchet and a flashlight. They are wearing rubbergloves and seem to be in a rage against the plants, throwing them around, cursing out loud.

Thats how it might have looked, what happened to us today

What really happened: 2 friends of mine and me were walking through the city, coming along that pit full of plants with a small bush in front of it. That one friend said something like “Hey… who wants to jump into that bush?” and the other friend did. Perhaps he didn’t know that that “Field full of little flowers” (thats how it looked from the street) behind the bush was actually a 1.2m deep pit full of stingy plants. Guess what? Right… he fell right into it… but apart from a few smaller injuries he’s all right, so don’t worry.
Because he lost his glasses while doing that, we searched for those a long time. The other friend went to my place to get his car, I got some gardening equiptment and we started looking for the glasses (but without success). Thats partly funny, partly very sad, because the glasses are still gone.

Now have a good night.

The Starseeker

Hello everybody!
I had a beatiful night and slept very very well… until… one of my neighbours, who calls himself a “car machinist” got the really really senseful idea to test his car engine at 7:00AM. JUST IN TIME to interrupt my precious dreams and with that, and to steal my sleep, which I actually need really much. He ran the test programme “Major noise, less afford” in which he accelerated his engine (while having no gear inserted) to about 7k-8krpm very fast for about 10 minutes in a very short interval. I hoped that his engine might break SO much, but it was no use. My sleep was gone, his engine was fine and so, he is happy, I am tired and really really pissed off. This state is not the state one would let me do customer care or wanted to be one of the customers I usually do care for.

But still, today might get a good day. The weather will supposingly not get too hot, the sky is a bit cloudy and thats the weather I like best. A freind of mine will come to visit me at the shop, all my co-workers or chefs have taken the day off and so it might get a busy day. I have to build some systems, do some repairs and cleaning and care for the customers, dropping by. I hope it will be a lot of fun ;).

Tell me how you found your star
Without doing any scar
to your skin

Your Starseeker