Hm… I hope, I didn’t shock you too much with that headline… I shocked myself also, but don’t be afraid, I wont stop living, blogging or loving, I just closed that big big open chapter in my life with the title “My passion for Caro”. Its some kind of sad, cause there was very much laughing and smiling inside… but there isn’t a person in this world, I spent more tears for, than her. Because I realized, that I feel a lot of pain, every time I browse that pages of my book of life, I, some weeks ago wrote that collection of thoughts (in german)
, that I, today, published on my Poetry portal. Its not that I push her to read it, I don’t even believe that would work. I just carry that hope in my heart, that, one day, that small expression of my feelings reach her, whatever she might think or do, it will be ok for me. Saying goodbye is always hard… but I think, she already said goodbye. I don’t know. I’m open for any kind of reaction from her side.
Apart from that, there is not much to tell… I carried that thick arris black stone in my heart way too long. May be I’m just way too verbose with my feelings, but thats what I’ve always been (even if somtimes towards the wrong people) and apart from the fact that I’m just used to tell whats on my mind frankly, it just matches the subtitle of the blog: “Things, one should only think, spoken out”
Theres one of my stars fading again… but I hope, it will be ok…
Farewell, and twinkle, if you don’t mind to 