Hello…
its been a while since I was writing on that topic… and its been a while, too that there was the necessity to do so. I’m high and down simultaneously again and my brain is going mad about that girl i met some weeks ago… Its very strange (but known). Thoughs are about “Will it work out this time? Will she be the one i’m looking for so long?” and the answers are always different… one out of “supposingly it will go wrong again… like it has to :/”, “This time, everything will be alright :3″ and something like “Don’t even mess with destiny… you’re unable to have a normal relationship to anyone anyway”. It makes me sseriously mad about this world, me and my life and I want to cry about all that everytime I see her.
She’s a member of my 2 IT-lectures and studies for getting a teacher, too. I know that, because we were sitting next to each other in the first test, were all to-be teachers were sitting together in a block. Her name is Anna… but i haven’t talked to her very much… aside things like “Good luck” or “How did it work for you?”… She seems to be very open minded and helpful with people she doesn’t know. But that all taken apart: she gives me butterflies as soon as she is near me… or in line of sight. I’m awfuly uneasy and timid as soon as I see her and I’m worshiping any moment, that i share with her in the same room…
But is this even possible? To feel like this about a person I don’t really know? Is it ok anyway? I’m quite unsure about myself right now… and i hope things get right…
The Starseeker